For 18 months I have been looking through a dirty window that has been laying right up against my mirror. Not enough exercise. Too many meals on the road between work and school. Not enough introspection. Not enough honesty. With myself. I have been living to get things done. To get through my classes. To meet the basic needs of my family. To meet deadlines. Slowly the dirt and dust started to cloud my vision, and I forgot to look at (and for) myself. I was bad to myself. Even harmful.
Yesterday we had a window installer out to measure our house for new windows, and while we were standing in my bedroom talking about which windows we wanted to put in, I was completely distracted for a minute, thinking about this parallel.
New windows. New vision. New recommittment to myself and my health. I am feeling good, having spent these past 6 weeks installing a much better window to look at myself through.