a thousand years


I saw death today in a sweet little coffin with a sleeping baby wrapped in a soft white blanket.  Usually a quiet occasion, this one was especially peaceful as his parents stood close by to watch over him.  They were kind and gracious to visitors while they offered hugs and dignity in the face of what I cannot even imagine.

And even though there is a gospel plan which offers hope and eternity, there must be that brief moment, after a tragic loss, where we think short -term.  Where we feel the gut-wrenching sense of loss and things-will-never-be-the-same-again.  That has to be allowed.

Then, gradually, our souls come around and convince our minds and bodies to succumb to this idea of forever.  Where we realize there is neither beginning nor end to our love.  Then, when we have rejoined ourselves, we wrap ourselves up in that white blanket.  Together.  As a family.  And sleep.


A Thousand Years
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21 comments

Marivic | March 22, 2012 at 12:03 AM

You expressed so well the thoughts, feelings, and heartbreak and eventually hopeful resignation I tragically experienced first-hand. Thank you. I love this song and you sang it beautifully. In fact, I prefer your version.

Jenny Lynn | March 22, 2012 at 6:02 AM

Very touching, and well put. I was so sad to hear about this loss.

mermaid gallery | March 22, 2012 at 6:53 AM

We will all face loss and the sadness.....your song says it all...i sat in the dark, with my morning coffee, and cried, as i listened....for all of us....Your song was sung in such a tender manner. ....thanks, Kazzy....

Connie | March 22, 2012 at 7:01 AM

Beautiful. Words and music. I love you, my friend.

Kimmie | March 22, 2012 at 8:14 AM

You should write books, you have the BEST way of expressing your thoughts and really making the reader feel and see what you are saying.

Life is fragile and things can change so quickly...gotta savor, treasure and cherish each and every day that we have with our kids, that we have with our friends and family!!

Your music was beautiful!

Kimmie | March 22, 2012 at 8:19 AM

I could listen to your music all day long....you are AMAZING...LOVE your voice, and all of the perfectly put together instruments.

WOW!! Thanks for sharing with us, it truly brings peace and beauty to our lives!

Ann Marie | March 22, 2012 at 8:52 AM

Your words- Beautiful and true.

Your voice- Beautiful and Angelic.

Anonymous | March 22, 2012 at 8:58 AM

Your voice gives me chills. Literally peppers my arms in goosebumps and wraps a fist around my heart. Thank you for sharing that gift.

How perfectly you said this--sang this. My heart breaks for that little family. My heart takes comfort in your perspective.

Kristina P. | March 22, 2012 at 9:36 AM

Wow, I think you outdid Christina Perry.

My heart has been with that sweet family, even though I don't really know them.

Valerie | March 22, 2012 at 11:11 AM

You have such a gift for words~ I think you expressed the tender, peaceful, sorrowful, hopeful emotions beautifully.

Love the song~ You have such a mellow, rich voice, always a pleasure to listen to!

CB | March 22, 2012 at 2:23 PM

Beautiful Kazzy.
I am so glad you got to go the funeral and support - I am sure it was hard for everyone.
I am glad to see Connie commenting here. I feel so much love for their family and what they have been through.
Thanks for your words of peace.

I love that song.

Welcome to the Garden of Egan | March 22, 2012 at 2:24 PM

Your voice is amazing.
Words so perfect.

Mindizzle | March 22, 2012 at 6:03 PM

I think it's okay to feel the loss and sadness. What do expect? I think we are lucky to have knowledge of the gospel plan, but it's okay to feel sad for a little bit. We are human. It's normal.

Becca | March 23, 2012 at 8:33 AM

(I love my Kazzy.)

wendy | March 23, 2012 at 1:46 PM

Oh My....Such a Beautiful song!!! You sounded absolutely wonderful.
It really brought a tear to my eye.

I have thought Of Connie and her family these past few days. Such a hard thing.
Connie is an angel....she drove all the way to my son's viewing and that was the first time I met her!!!! She even brought a beautiful picture of Christ and a child.
How amazing is THAT.

It hurts so bad when we loose someone we love...at THAT moment, it is hard to focus on eternity and forever. But thank goodness for that knowledge, or I would have never survived the loss of my son.

It seems like a Thousand Years before I'll get to see him again.
And, yet....I probably LOVED HIM for a Thousand years BEFORE he ever came into my life, as my son.

Julie | March 23, 2012 at 4:44 PM

You truly have such a beautiful and soothing voice not only audibly, but with words as well.

Momza | March 24, 2012 at 6:59 PM

Thank you. So perfect.

Barbaloot | March 25, 2012 at 9:17 AM

I saw your post on facebook this morning. I'm so sorry for you guys!! Hope everyone is going to be okay.

Camille | March 25, 2012 at 9:54 AM

oh Karen, I'm so sorry that you had to not only witness our tragic loss, but then experience one of your own just days after. If there's anything I learned from our tragedy - it's that it's OK to cry, weep, and wail. My heart and prayers go out to you!

Valerie | March 26, 2012 at 8:18 AM

I heard from others about your own sad news. I am so sorry! I pray you all feel such peace through it all.

Susan | May 17, 2012 at 10:50 AM

I'm so sorry.