Throwing a Party for Myself

Kazzy

Throwing a Party for Myself

Yesterday I was sitting near a friend at our sons' AA soccer game and we started reciting our own personal histories to each other.  She is from Washington, I am from Virginia.  We each have four kids, close to the same ages.  We have had similar experiences in our communities, etc.  She asked if I would reconsider this one choice I had made many years ago which has changed my destiny.  I found that I didn't even need to think about my answer.  I would make the same choice again and again if I had to.  Some things are just like that- no thinking time necessary. 

Next Wednesday is a huge day for me.  25 years ago, on the 23rd of July, I made a life-changing decision which has, well, changed my life in every single aspect.  You know, those kinds of decisions that are so crucial that you seriously cannot imagine what your life would be like had you not made them?  And you know these things have taken deep root in you when the people involved are important but not the most important part.  The most important part is how you change and remake yourself, even if it is subtle.  And then, of course, you realize that almost every other critical choice you have made is a by-product of that alpha choice.

Now I am making arrangements for my own party.  I will be sending out one invitation.  Maybe I will put some confetti in the envelope, or maybe I will glue some glitter on it.  I might even treat myself to a nice dinner out.  But one thing is for sure.  25 years ago I made the decision alone and I will celebrate my choice alone on this day.  It is the appropriate way.  There will be reflection, and maybe even an emotional moment or two.  So, if you happen to go out next Wednesday and you see a woman in her prime (read as "mid-forties") alone with a tissue in her hand, just assume it's me and those are tears of joy.