How do you see yourself? How close are you to the person your coworkers and fellow worshipers see you as?
I used to say to my husband, "Do you ever feel like we are living a lie? Like we work so hard to put our best foot forward, and that the real us is buried somewhere underneath?" I still feel that way sometimes.
My darker, more introverted half is not always patient with weakness. Especially my own. I am fine with failure when it seems to be accidental or out of my, or anyone's, hands. But if it is something that could have been helped. Well, then I relive it a few dozen times in my mind, thinking about what could have gone better.
But my extroverted half, the one that loves going to dinner with friends and laughing til it hurts, loves to let everything go. I can play and put things off until the last minute if the immediate payoff is good enough.
I am dark. I am light. I am half-lit.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad