incremental fog

Today was a day of self-pity and fogginess.  The fogginess, of course, brought on by crying.  10-minute increments about every couple of hours this afternoon.  Why I was crying is stuff for another day.

Then 2 things happened.  I attended a Young Women event where the girls spoke of their divine nature.  We are instruments in the hands of God, they said.  And surely they are.  And second, I read the account of a friend who fell today and hurt herself.  Really hurt herself. 

And so I am now thinking to myself, Why am I whining?  My life is good.  I can't have everything I want all of the time.  I can live with that.

I will smile tomorrow and climb out, and play my own instrument.


mermaid gallery | October 12, 2010 at 9:54 PM

The woman cried because she had no shoes...until she met the woman who had no's all relative...and sometimes a good cry gets the tension out...

Lara Neves | October 12, 2010 at 10:00 PM

Perspective is definitely good. BUT don't feel bad for feeling. Or crying. Heaven knows I've shed my share of tears this past week over things that are probably not that big a deal to many, but they were to me. So I cried.

Connie | October 12, 2010 at 10:03 PM

I'm so sorry. It seems that self-pity is contagious today.
Watching the rescue of the miners who have been stuck in the mine for over 2 months, makes me realize how blessed I am. They're climbing out in to the light! Hang in there, my friend. Though it seems dark now, it will get better. My heart goes out to you.

Anonymous | October 12, 2010 at 10:06 PM

I think this is just this day. Today has sucked for a lot of people on a lot of levels. I'm blaming the oncoming of winter. Seriously. If I could, I'd send you a box o' chocolates and a cup of warm cocoa. *hugs*

LisAway | October 13, 2010 at 1:23 AM

That kind of fog is just like regular fog. It's very real. It makes it hard to see things clearly. We don't ask it to come and we can't command it to leave. But it always does leave. There is something helpful and therapeutic about having the fog now and again.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. Thinking of you.

gigi | October 13, 2010 at 5:55 AM

Good cry washes away the dust of life and allows us to see more clearly.

Blessings on your day, Karen.

Kim | October 13, 2010 at 6:07 AM

I believe we have these pity-party days to remind of us of those things we are grateful and then hang on.

My dear, hang in there the light does come and happiness does return. :)

Momza | October 13, 2010 at 6:22 AM

A good blue mood once in awhile is good for us--according to Pres. Packer. It gives us time to contemplate, re-focus, and appreciate the good times.
I throw pity-parties for myself once in awhile also. I'm a really good guest too. I clean up after myself and noone knows I was there. heehee

Jenny Lynn | October 13, 2010 at 6:32 AM

Let the tears is good to have a good cry. Then to realize what you have when your done. All good!! Sending prayers for a better day to you.

Unknown | October 13, 2010 at 9:07 AM

This is how I've spent every Sunday for the last 2 months. With periodic bouts of sniffling in between. I know that I'm in a period of transition, life-wise, and having at least acknowledged that makes me feel a little less insane. But I have to admit, I'm getting a little tired of waking up on Monday morning looking like I'd been attacked by wasps!

Send me an e-mail; I want to know what's going on with you. And if you're up for it, I'll bring my own boo-hoo casserole to the pity-party!

Love you!

Barbaloot | October 13, 2010 at 9:35 AM

Sometimes it's nice to have moments of incremental fog. Good for you for giving in and realizing how to get out:)

Marianne | October 13, 2010 at 1:31 PM

You had a pity party and you didn't invite me? I still have two candy bars left from mine...

Anyway, cry it and and then move on. It sounds like that is just what you are doing. As my old favorite album ("Free to Be You and Me") says, "It's all right to cry. Crying gets the sad out of you. It's all right to cry, it might make you feel better."


Anonymous | October 13, 2010 at 9:14 PM

I think you just put on a concert and I enjoyed listening. ;)

Kimberly Vanderhorst | October 17, 2010 at 10:13 PM

I've just caught up on reading your blog and I'm zeroing in on this post and leaving my comment here, because you are all kinds of amazing and it shows here as much as in your most joyful, and happy of posts. Because the foggy days, they happen, and it's okay. Because joy shines brighter in the darkness, you know?

I love, as always, how genuine you are. It's like it gives me permission to be real too.

Dedee | October 25, 2010 at 2:23 PM

I needed this post today.