a little psyched

Monday was warm and sunny, and I opted out of making dinner so that I could take a long walk and listen to Imogene Heap sing "Headlock".  I stopped by the high school baseball field to watch a scrimmage game on my way home (did you know I am a sports nut?), and then I took my youngest to his cello lesson.

When I walk my mind wanders and I use the quiet for processing things.  How are the boys doing?  How can I serve my husband better?  What will happen to my sweet little downs syndrome student next year?  I am not a social walker.  I need to be selfish here and there.  Social in a lot of other situations (most, actually), just not when I am getting my walk on.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love my sweet daughter-in-law?  She is tender-hearted and a little shy, and she loves my first-born.  I know this because I see how patient she is with him.  She allows him his time to bang on drums in his band(s).  She allows him to be himself.

And she is giving me a little granddaughter in the Summer.  Can you see her high-fiving us?

My missionary son comes home in 5 weeks.  He is obedient and humble and funny and all-around terrific.  I am anxious to wrap my arms around him and kiss his handsome freckled face.

This house of boys has been what I have needed.  My destiny, I guess you could say.  I have spent the past 24 years teaching them to try and think of others' feelings.  To not slam the kitchen drawers so hard.  To not leave their dirty underwear on the threshold of the bathroom.  To talk to me.  And to know I get to start teaching again when Little Miss Burton comes makes me hope that I have gotten better at it.

I love my life.


Kristina P. | March 7, 2012 at 5:11 PM

I always leave your blog feeling happier than I did before.

Barbaloot | March 7, 2012 at 6:18 PM

Hooray for a grandbaby!! What a lucky girl to come to your family:)

And he's coming home already?! I'm just not okay with time moving that quickly.

Becca | March 7, 2012 at 7:06 PM

Such a happy-making post. You make the right words to help me feel the right feelings. And know what? I walk alone, too. I like the time alone with my thoughts (but an hour is about all the time I should be alone with those guys...)

Stacy | March 7, 2012 at 7:18 PM

Love this.

You make such good people. I want to learn how to raise my kids like that. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the play dates and the diapers that it's easy to lose sight of the fact that someday they'll grow up to be real people! I hope mine turn out as well as yours have.

Marianne | March 7, 2012 at 8:47 PM

Where's the like button? I want to like this!!

Welcome to the Garden of Egan | March 7, 2012 at 9:48 PM

Wow! All the pictures are so ....WOW!
One getting done with a mission and little Miss baby girl getting ready to start one!
Your year is exciting!

wendy | March 7, 2012 at 11:28 PM

I did not know you were a sports nut.. I LOVE SPORTS!!!!
funny, as my husband doesn't. He's all about horses and country stuff.
Which is a weird adjustment for me having raised 4 sons all involved in sports, and previously married to a high school football coach.

You are a good woman Kazzy. A good mom and will be a spectacular g-ma. That is the best gifts ever.
You have many exciting things ahead of you in this next year...weeks actually.
ENJOY and relish every lovely moment.

Kim | March 8, 2012 at 3:03 PM

You are One Lucky Lady!!! Granddaughter. Oh how much you will have buy pink things.

Only 5 weeks!! I am so excited for you. I now have less than 2 weeks. To be exact only 12 days! I can hardly wait for both of us. It's so exciting!

I to love the time outs from walking and pondering. Those have always been my favorite moments.

Keep it up and continue loving every moment.

Joanie | March 8, 2012 at 8:41 PM

Congratulations on soon becoming a grandma, to sweet granddaughter. I am so jealous, but so happy for you.

Unknown | March 9, 2012 at 11:18 PM

Love the high 5 ultra sound! And it was so fun hanging with you today. Can't wait for tomorrow!

Connie | March 10, 2012 at 10:26 PM

It's good to have alone time for pondering. It seems like it was just yesterday when your cute elder left for his mission.
So excited for you to be a grandma!

Anonymous | March 12, 2012 at 4:44 PM

I took a walk today and felt that same thing. A place for my thoughts to gather and settle and even rile up. It's a beautiful thing.

You're my ideal for when I'm a mother-in-law. I want to love my new daughters this dearly.

Hooray! Your Mish comes home! Oh, that is a HAPPY DAY!

Mindizzle | March 19, 2012 at 7:51 PM

Girl PoWER!!!!